Easter

A man who was completely innocent, offered himself as a sacrifice for the good of others, including his enemies, and became the ransom of the world. It was a perfect act." - Mahatma Gandhi Thank you to a childhood friend for reminding me of this quote. It is Easter Sunday and I am not going to family for dinner as I would have done prior to two years ago. Last week in my CODA group we read the perfect part of Step Twelve. I am responsible for my own recovery as are the people in my life. I fix me....and how my family responds is completely up to them. But I have to get past the pain and sadness of my closest family members turning their back on me. I've learned so much about myself this year...2016...I've taken a very hard, intense look inside and outside and I'm still doing But after all of my life, I'm just now learning who I am and who I want to be.

"Perhaps, we should love ourselves so fiercely, that when others see us they know exactly how it should be done." - Rudy Francisco I'm working on loving myself. I don't know if I will ever have a deep love from someone, I hope I do. But I'm working hard on loving myself and forgiving myself for everything. I'm dreaming again...what might be. I haven't done that in a long, long time.